29 days left of 2018. It’s been 1 crazy twisting roller coaster ride of my emotions.I will be pleased to turn the final page of this year, it has been 1 of my sluggish years.I ha e learned so much, understanding ME as ME and !going me, realizing mishaps but finding another way to problem solve various puzzles within life.
This week well last week now at few unexpected obstacles abruptly popped up to try &knock out family out of a winning position, but we haven’t fallen. Just changed our strategy approach! My husband got paid off work on Friday. The way it happens was like a dirty unexpected tackle in a match. We are up to necks in bills, Christmas is 23 days and Evie is 29 days. Am I worried? No! I am relieved and relaxed! Wh y? We have each other as a family. I trust my husband with total belief in him. He will get a job very quickly, so will i. Evie will receive her amazing birthday and Christmas, I have my husband home for a bit of time &enjoy each other. We will tackle more together over this week. This excites me as I know I have sort of drifted into snooze mode within marriage and family life.
2019 is The Broons year of sparkle and achieving with both individual and team efgort. I feel to smash this we let go and say meantful goodbyes to all we need closure too. It’s all done near the end but enough time to dig deep and find that hurried treasure your souls search for then once found and opened your sparkle is unleashed very bright bold and beautiful satisfaction in yourself and enjoy all that unfolds in your roller coaster ride!
Blogging shall be my way of remembering my goals.
HOW DO I SAY GOODBYE ALONG WITH LETTING GO?
Write down all I want to say Cheerio to and let go off. So I am going to share all.
2 years ago on 03/02/17 I chose to choose a door on close family that brought me unwanted greif! This past few weeks I have really thinking about things I haven’t dealt with and this has been a major influencer on descions I have made since then. My dad & nanna did not agree with many of our wedding planning decions. I stuck to my choices. They both walked out my life. I wasn’t expecting it or emotioalyy prepared and the way events unfolded the results of this were similar to a sudden death.
I just decided bury all my feeling and I suppose ignore. With all the events that happened it was in the very 1st week of 2017. Today I have had that light bulb moment where everything made s ensr. Beginning 2017 with these incidents was to new into year, I never closed the lid or finished t h e page.I need to now decide how to say goodbye to this.First of all open lid of box to fix so I can close properly. In 29 days when the clock strikes midnight I am ready and equipped to let it go and freely float clear into the unknown new chapter which is 2019.
Woohoo! Now I have that 1 clear it’s now 1 big hurdle jumped and clear. What strategy will ensure my 2nd hurdle is as smooth a job? Well who do I need the closure with? My dad and nanna! Was what I said and felt ever known to them? No to both. Do I want face to face contact? No is my session as I know a lot of rejection will occur. Physically seeing them I feel I would be weak. So I feel a written letter to both staring all I feel and why I feel it and reasons to support my actions. Even if their response could be looked at as negative I see repetitive within it. I am expresseing my case and uninterupted. I let all out and finally let go peacefully and clearly.my true reasons. The door is ready to close properly.
Oh my goodness how amazing. I have CLARITY! I feel energised knowing what to do to close the lid! I shall do this in a letter this week. Another goodbye is to smoking! More than half of my life I have smoked and it’s time to say that final bye to that sordid dirty love affair with the slow sooking breath that is killing a part of me every day. The crazy thing is I allow it too through choice. Time to salvage what I can and then get the puncture repair kit out to mend my body!
Woohoo I know have clarified the 2 major goodbyes which will occur over next 20 or so days. With smoking I now need to decide what approach is needed to ensure the lid has no way of falling off in 2019!
I can now focus on individual, family and couple goals. I’m 37 on next birthday. Turning 40 a lot quicker than I think. Ok so where do I want to be in my life at 46?Am I happy at 36?What have I achieved since 26 & 16?
Another blog post will cover the all important to me answers with my new life goals and the action plan! I am excited and motivated for a huge declutter of what is not needed. I love the feeling of organisation, a place for all as 2018 comes to an end. I am excited about the empty pages still a story to be written that lies in front.
It’s now Monday as I finish off my soul searching Sunday and I feel very calm and happy! Also very sparkly as it is sparkle day at school so I’m covered again in glitter!
Have a lovely day all! Xx